It would seem you shatter any option for you to exist within the reality that you exist. It is understandable. Uncertainty is scary, yet acceptance is the undeniable place nature clicks into place the nearer to to the present we get. Your fear, masquerading at certainty pulls and goads others with similar fears to you and the present is increasing the numbers. You take this external, pleasing worship, as validation of your delusional fantasy. Leave everything outside of life, outside of life. Indomitable Love is not a wakeful state of the human collective that currently has historical precedent. Everyone has a uniquely perfect and singular, valuable role within in. Each one denying the acceptance that comes from self validating, unconditional,internal love, is one who risks the benefits that come from the Kingdom of Love that is as far as breathing, and as accepting as an ocean at the end of a mighty river. Release the hold you have on what you have always kniwn, before the hurt turned you into a diverting dam.